the worst.

i just want to be like the other girls, who can always got what they want, got their happiness. i want to be myself. i want to eat. i want to play. i want to dance. i want to do all things i really love. but i know that i can't, there's something always determent me. i don't know why, i just want to be the other girls, who was stronger than me. i think i was a strong girl, but that is just the way i'm thinking about. but, the reality i'm not as strong as i think. i am wondering why ... why i can't be like the the other girls who dont need to act like she was a happy girl, but the reality, she is so weak. like me. i'm pretending to be a happiest person in the world but in fact i'm not like that. sometimes, i'm wondering why dont i born to be someone else? or born to be the other happy girl? i always try to cover my tears with my smile. but i always failed. these tears are drowning me ... drowning me so deep... made me lost my soul. and my passion. God... please, give me some reason.. why did i am not as strong as i think? Hmm... i dont know what to do. God, i'll hand over all of my problem to You. *sigh*

Study Tour Oct 8, 2010

Kali ini gw study ke TMII. yak. TMII! uda kek anak SD -___- pas pertama denger study tour ke Taman Mini dan Tajur Bogor, gw uda males aja tuh. Gw pikir pasti bakal ngebosenin abis! Tapi ga bosen2 amat sih. Tapi sedihnya, Bujing ditinggal gitu gara2 dateng telat dan pake clana pendek. Hiks! Gw baru tau SMA Provi tuh separah itu, masa cuma gara2 pake clana pendek doang sampe ditinggal. Gw sedih banget :( tapi pas uda baru2 sampe di Taman Mini, tiba2 si penpen (dia ditinggal juga) telpon gua nanya gw dimana nya TMII. Gw bilang di Museum Iptek. Dan perkiraan gw bener loh dia dateng sm Bujing! YAOLOH. Gw seneng banget! HEHEHE. biarpun kita cuma ketemu bentar karna dia pulang duluan, gw tetap senang :DD

Pertama-tama kita ke Museum Iptek, menarik2, ada juga simulasi gempa yang ga seru sama sekali. Cape ngantri nya, pas masuk ga seru. Hahaha.

Museum Iptek.

Kedua, ke Museum Migas. Bosen gitu, cuma banyak spot foto menarik :p

Museum Minyak & Gas.

Ketiga, ke Akuarium air tawar. Ikan nya pada lucu2 abis! HAHAHA. Ada ikan kembar siam, ada ikan sombong, dll :p

Aquarium Air Tawar

Tour nya, di Tajur. BOSEN! Ngga ada yg menarik hati gw. Jadi gw, Inka, Clara, Adel dan Bajaw main Truth or Dare pas di meja tempat makan nya. Seru! Si Clara kena terus, dan dia dare terus, jadi kita nantangin dia buat ngajak kenalan abang yg jualan toge goreng gitu. HHAHAHA kocak! Abang nya langsung senyum2 gitu loh. hahaha. tapi ga lama kemudia kita balik ke bis dan pergi ke restoran sunda gitu buat makan, lumayan lah, biasa nya waktu gw SMP, study tour nya makan nya tuh nasi bungkus gitu. hahaha.

De'Luit Resto, Bogor.

Akhirnya kita OTW pulang. Seru nya, gw bener2 ngerasa kalo friendship : never die! HEHE teman2 gw sangat berharga buat gw, di saat susah, seneng, sedih, seru, lucu, semua nya, mereka selalu ada buat gw. Thanks God i found them :)

weird -___-

LAST NIGHT, gue ngigo. bukan ngigo biasa. tapi ngigo aneh (gw ga yakin juga itu namanya ngigo), yang pasti gw tidur bener2 pules tapi gw bisa kirim text message! jadi intinya, gw tidur sambil sms.

lucu nya sms yang gw kirim adalah ke cowo gw, isinya "Buz i love you @". gw agak bingung juga kenapa ada tanda @ disana, tapi inti nya, saat tidur pun gw tetep mau bilang kalo gw sayang sm dia. dimana pun, sedang apapun, sampai kapanpun, gw akan selalu sayang lu, Mr. Bujing :)