I remember how you scolded me and my brother when we were fighting.
I remember how you always asked me to help you when you were sewing.
I remember how you hated my long messy hair.
I remember how you loved to listen to Cakrawala FM.
I remember how you shouted 'KIEEEN' really loud.
I remember your laughed when i was telling a joke.
I remember your smiled when i came to visit you.
I remember your touch, your smile, your love towards me.
I remember it all. And i love it. I love you.
Maybe some people will find this too much or think that I'm an attention seeker.
But no one. No one in this world would ever know. How it feels.
How I feel. How it hurts. You'll never know.
Because I love her more than anything in this world.
I love her everything. I can't even explain.
How hard it is to lose her this fast.
Why?
Why did she go this fast?
I still need her.
I still wanna hear her voice.
And see her smile.
And hold her hands.
I never shed a tear when I saw your condition when you were sick.
Because I have faith and hope you will eventually get better.
But I was wrong :( so so wrong.
You've been so strong. But now you're gone.
You're already gone for 143 days.
Almost 5 months... And I miss you so much.
So so so damn much.
This year is my first birthday without you.
And its kinda hard to believe you're no longer around.
And I still can't get used to the fact that you're no longer here with me.
Thank you, Grandma. For your love and your kindness.
And for every single thing you've done for me.
You are the Best Grandma ever. I love you so much!
Grandma, you gotta be happy in heaven, okay?
Till we meet again. You'll be missed.
Love,
Your Grand-daughter.
