Best Grandma Ever

I remember how you always took care of me since i was a little kid.
I remember how you scolded me and my brother when we were fighting.
I remember how you always asked me to help you when you were sewing.
I remember how you hated my long messy hair.
I remember how you loved to listen to Cakrawala FM.
I remember how you shouted 'KIEEEN' really loud.
I remember your laughed when i was telling a joke.
I remember your smiled when i came to visit you.
I remember your touch, your smile, your love towards me.
I remember it all. And i love it. I love you.

Maybe some people will find this too much or think that I'm an attention seeker.
But no one. No one in this world would ever know. How it feels.
How I feel. How it hurts. You'll never know.
Because I love her more than anything in this world.
I love her everything. I can't even explain.
How hard it is to lose her this fast.
Why?
Why did she go this fast?
I still need her.
I still wanna hear her voice.
And see her smile.
And hold her hands.

I never shed a tear when I saw your condition when you were sick.
Because I have faith and hope you will eventually get better.
But I was wrong :( so so wrong.
You've been so strong. But now you're gone.
You're already gone for 143 days.
Almost 5 months... And I miss you so much.
So so so damn much.
This year is my first birthday without you.
And its kinda hard to believe you're no longer around.
And I still can't get used to the fact that you're no longer here with me.
Thank you, Grandma. For your love and your kindness.
And for every single thing you've done for me.
You are the Best Grandma ever. I love you so much!

Grandma, you gotta be happy in heaven, okay?
Till we meet again. You'll be missed.

Love,

Your Grand-daughter.

hello again!

awkward.
hahaha.
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errrr. been a long time since i wrote my last post!
i suddenly remember that i have a blog.
then i re-read all of my post and duh so cheesy hahahaha.
hmmm. it seems like terakhir kali gue nulis blog udah 3 tahun yg lalu.

so, sekarang gue udah lulus SMA tepatnya uda 1 taun lulusnya sih. dan gue ga langsung kuliah, pending 1 tahun gitu because of financial problems gitulah. jadi kerja cari duit dulu gitu selama 1 tahun ini.

selama 1 tahun terakhir sih gue kerja macem-macem dari jadi SPG sampe jualan online. darisana gue nabung sedikit demi sedikit dan ga nyangka sih kerjaan yg (ga tetap) kek gitu bisa nguliahin gue tahun ini. Puji Tuhan! terbukti kan gak ada yg ga mungkin kalo kita terus berharap, berdoa, have faith dan beusaha melakukan yg terbaik dari diri kita, somehow we will get what we want if its really the best for us :)

kalo kata agnez mo: "dream, believe and make it happen!"
udah gitu aja ya. mau lanjut nonton running man dulu hehehhehe.

Semester IV

Well, sekarang gue udah semester 2 kelas XI-IPS! YEAAHHH!

Dan itu artinya ga lama lagi bakalan banyak libur dan 4-5 bulan lagi bakal liburan panjang!

Ga diragukan lagi emang hal yg paling ditunggu-tunggu anak sekolah adalah liburan :p

Anyway, gue kemaren itu uda UAS-I dan inilah hasilnya!

Matematika : 8.25 (1)

Jepang : 78 (6)

Bahasa Inggris : 98 (1)

Akuntansi : 80 (2)

Agama : 78 (1)

Geografi : 75 (1)

Kewarganegaraan: 58 (3)

Sosiologi : 78 (2)

Sejarah : 76 (2)

Bahasa Indonesia : 82 (1)

Bahasa Mandarin : 92

Penjasorkes : 87 (9)

Ekonomi : 82

TIK : 93 (2)

(Yang dikurungin itu peringkatnya di kelas)

Yak, begitulah nilai gue. Cukup memuaskan tapi karna manusia ga cepat puas jadi gue merasa kurang puas juga, apalagi kalo ngeliat KWN nya merah! Padahal itu semua salah gurunya jarang ngajar dikelas -___- Luckily, di raport gue KWN nya ngga merah karna pake sistem SAS. Hehehe. Yg merah malah musik, karna gurunya salah masukin nilai, jadi nilai musik kita satu angkatan pada merah smua nilai nya. ARGHHH.

Karna SKBM sekolah gue skarang 75 jadi nilai segitu bisa dibilang pas-pasan. Semester selanjutnya harus lebih rajin lagi! Semangat! \(' o ')/

Oh iya, MERRY CHRISTMAS and HAPPY NEW YEAR yah semuanya! :)

xoxo.

Little thought about friend ;)

Teman adalah orang yang gue anggep sangat berharga. Sayangnya, hanya beberapa dari teman itu yang mungkin menganggap gue berharga. Tiap hari ke sekolah, ketemu temen. Jalan bareng temen. Jajan sama temen. Hampir semua hal yang kita lakuin, pasti bareng-bareng sama temen.

Tapi kenapa dengan fakta spt itu, masih banyak temen yang palsu, berkhianat, bahkan ngomongin dari belakang. Apa mereka ga puas akan keadaan temen yang mereka punya?

Selama 16 tahun ini, gue uda punya banyak banget temen deket, bahkan sahabat. Mereka datang silih berganti, dan pergi juga silih berganti. Ada yang bisa bikin gue percaya banget sama mereka, sampe gue cerita hampir semua isi hati dan kehidupan gue. Tapi ternyata bisa kita liat, ga ada orang yg bisa dipercaya, karna ujung-ujungnya hal yg kita percayaain itu bakalan bocor juga.

Kepercayaan itu kayak ember. Semakin gede tampungannya, semakin gede bocornya,

Gossip. Hal yang kita selalu lakuin sama temen. Gossipin artis, gossipin cowo, bahkan gossipin temen lain yang lagi ga ikutan gossip sama kita. Sadar ga sih, orang yg ngegossip sama kita itu, mungkin saat kita ngga ada, mereka malah yg ngegossipin kita loh.

Maka dari itu, gue pikir terkadang kepercayaan itu sebenernya kata yang ga perlu jadi kata. Gue juga ga ngerti. Intinya buat apa ada kepercayaan kalo ujung-ujungnya kepercayaan itu dilanggar juga. Apalagi kalo dilanggar sm temen sendiri, malesin banget kan.

Barusan kebetulan gue liat quotes yang pas sama postingan kali ini.

Trust is like an eraser, it gets smaller and smaller after every mistake.

Ada juga yang bilang gini:

Friend is like a brand. Some is real, some is fake.

Tapi bagi gue:

FAKE FRIENDS are REAL, and REAL FRIENDS are FAKE.

Inspirer

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